Jon Gosselin Is Tired Of Being Blamed

Reality star dad-of-eight Jon Gosselin wants to set the record straight. After months of drama and speculation surrounding his split from his wife of 10 years Kate, Jon says he's tired of taking the brunt of the blame. As filming resumes on the family's TLC hit, Jon & Kate Plus 8, Jon talks to In Touch about his break-up with Kate, how his kids are coping - and of course his new love Hailey Glassman.

On Kate initiating their split: "Let’s go back to October of last year — that’s when all of this happened. Kate basically came to me out of the blue and said, 'I am done. You are going to live your life, and I am going to live my life.' I was like, 'What?' I didn’t really know what was going on. When she said that, I was really upset and nervous."

On wanting his marriage to work: "Yes, I asked, 'What do I have to do to mend the relationship? What did I do wrong?' I was beating myself up about it. So I read a lot of books about personalities, like The Five Love Languages. Throughout the marriage, I felt like my personality had changed a lot. In December, I went to therapy. I asked Kate to come, but she didn’t want to. She said, 'If you have a problem, go fix it.'"

On when they started living apart: "We went to Utah on January 1. On January 12, she flew back with security and I stayed. That’s when I started to just hang out and meet people, and feel free. Not too many girls, just with my guy friends. I couldn’t do that for nine years. When I came back on the 17th, Kate and I weren’t talking. So I just said, 'I’m moving out of the house,' and that was it."

On finding love, post-breakup, with 22-year-old Hailey Glassman: "Hailey — it started around May. She is the polar opposite of Kate. It’s really different. I feel good about myself and people see my good qualities. I’m not being put down. If I want to go out with my friends, Hailey says, 'Oh, go out.' I’m not used to that. I was used to, 'No, no, it’s your fault.' Sometimes I ask Hailey permission, like I used to do with Kate, and she says, 'You don’t have to ask permission.' I was used to living like that, and now it’s like a breath of fresh air. You can have a balanced relationship but also spend time with your friends."

On his rumored relationship with Star reporter Kate Major: "I felt like, 'Okay, I have a cool new person in New York and we can just go out for dinner.' Then it was a conflict of interest with her work. I have always been true to Hailey."

On how the kids are handling the split: "Even though they are young, it still hurts them. They can’t figure it out. They’re like, 'Why aren’t they together? Why can’t you hug her?' The other day, Alexis said, 'I want you and Mommy to be home together.' And it hurts because it’s not going to happen — and how do you explain that? I just let them know we love them no matter what. It’s hard. I feel like I failed them."

On introducing Hailey to the kids: "I think it would have to be after the divorce is finalized. I can’t just show up with Hailey. I think we all need a little routine in our lives. Right now, it’s helter-skelter. Once there is a routine, we’ll start off slowly, like going out to dinner. We are dealing with eight different personalities, and they will each handle it in different ways. They may never be comfortable."