Lily Allen: Grief Of Miscarriage "Hit Me Like A House Collapsing"

Almost two years after suffering a miscarriage, 24-year-old singer Lily Allen says she often thinks about the baby she lost.

"I still get sad. I still think. I don't mark my baby's birth but it's always there. It changed a lot," she reveals.

The Smile singer, who was dating Ed Simons of the Chemical Brothers at the time, confirmed the pregnancy in late 2007, but by January 2008 she had announced the news of the miscarriage.

Lily recalls what it was like to have to live through such a painful experience in the public eye.

"I couldn't even compute the emotions going through my head, but I was having to put out a press release about my miscarriage.

"I had this public sympathy for about five days and then everyone was on my case again and I didn't know what was happening to me.

"I just didn't deal with it at all. I didn't even start beginning to deal with it until the baby's due date. Then it just hit me like a house collapsing. The week before the due date, all I wanted to do was talk about my baby but I also felt I shouldn't. I was working non-stop and I had all this inside my head."

Lily, who eventually sought counseling to help her deal with her grief, says that life these days is good.

"It's not about being famous, it's not about all the parties, it's not about wanting to be the biggest pop star on the planet," she muses. "It's about being happy. For me, that is [my boyfriend] Sam [Cooper], spending time at home, sorting out bed linen - being normal."