Real Housewives star Bethenny Frankel is soaking up the joys of motherhood with 8-week-old baby Bryn at home, but along with her current elation comes the reminder of her own less happy upbringing.
“I never had a true childhood,” she tells PEOPLE. “There was a lot of destruction: alcohol abuse, eating disorders and violent fights.”
Bethenny, the daughter of horse trainer Bobby Frankel and his first wife Bernadette, describes her mom as “extremely volatile”.
“She was never a mother to me,” adds the 39-year-old reality star.
Bethenny says she is now grateful for the chance to bring her own daughter up in a stable home with husband Jason Hoppy: “I live for this baby.”
In a recent interview, she opened up to Celebrity Baby Scoop about how things have changed since marrying Jason: “I do feel different now that I’m married. I just feel so comfortable. There no ‘what ifs’, and ‘should we’ and ‘what do we do’? I’m just so happy and I know we’re in the right spot.”
The couple were married earlier this year on March 28. Their wedding is detailed in the new series Bethenny Getting Married? which debuted June 10 on Bravo.