In her second guest blog, Sarah, who celebrates her 31st birthday on Saturday, reflects on the “incredible” experience of her first ultrasound. The mom-to-be also talks about preparing for motherhood: “My priorities and desires are shifting in a very deep and profound way, and I think that I need this time to process that change in me.”
There’s nothing like an ultrasound to make this whole pregnancy thing feel super real. I have to say, my first ultrasound was one of the most incredible experiences of my life. My little person was in constant motion. Baby kept moving it’s arms up to it’s face. It yawned. It kicked it’s little legs out. At one point it was facing us and then squirmed around completely and stuck it’s butt out at us. It was the craziest thing! Having the visual of my little person has really solidified the fact that I am becoming a parent. Every time I feel the baby move, I can now attach the feeling with an image. I’ve found myself talking to my belly quite a lot.
I’ve also found myself thinking about dreams recently. The fall is my favorite time of year, and I think it’s because it feels like a new beginning. When I was in high school, I loved the beginning of the school year. I loved dreaming about what this coming year might bring, whom I might meet, and what exciting things might happen to me. The world was wide open. Anything could happen. Now, I feel like I’m embarking on a totally new chapter of my life. I’m settled. I’m with the love of my life. I’m living my dream in a very real way in terms of my career and passion.
Things are more grounded and less uncertain, and it’s a wonderful thing, but there are times when I wish I could go back to that time when things were totally uncertain and I spent all my time dreaming. As I feel this little person moving around, and as I move into this new place in life, I’m getting so excited about the opportunity to watch my little person experience that wide-eyed-dreaming and that uncertainty. I’m excited to meet whomever they choose as a life partner. I’m excited to see how they discover their identity and passions. I’m excited to walk beside them through first love and heartbreak.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve found myself fantasizing about going to my kids’ soccer games and screaming on the sidelines. It’s funny. I’m living my dream that I would stay awake at night imagining as a child, and now that the excitement about my dream has faded for me, I get to dream about a whole new generation. And believe me, this new dreaming is so much more exciting than my dreams as a teenager.
I think there’s a reason we are given almost ten months to grow a child before we meet them. There is so much that we have to go through as impending parents. My priorities and desires are shifting in a very deep and profound way, and I think that I need this time to process that change in me. It’s such an exciting and emotional time. My mother always said that the only things that are really worth looking forward to in life are marriage and having children, and I gotta say, I think I’m starting to understand what she was talking about.
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