Although many people may condemn reality television as being ridiculous and trashy, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills alum Taylor Armstrong claims that the rolling cameras in her household may have saved her life.
The reality star recently spoke to Access Hollywood about how she and her 5-year-old daughter Kennedy are putting their lives back together, piece by piece, following the tragic suicide death of her estranged husband Russell Armstrong in August.
“When I originally signed up for the show, I think part of my motivation, whether I realized it or not, was that having cameras in my life provided a protection,” revealed the
40-year-old mother. “I assumed and felt that no one would be violent with a camera rolling on them, and be on their best behavior… My hope was that it would stop the cycle, stop the anger. It would either protect me or it would force the marriage to be over. I couldn’t make a decision either way because I wasn’t strong enough. It provided a layer of protection, and at the same time… I think it gave me the strength to leave.”
Taylor continues to explain how she revealed Russell’s death to Kennedy and how the 5-year-old little girl is coping.
“She just knows that Daddy got sick. We don’t describe it as an illness that you and I get, but that Daddy was sick in his mind. That’s about as far as we’ve gone right now,” the mother-of-one explains. “There are people who’ve advised me to tell her much more. As a mother, I have to go with my gut for now, and decide when I feel she’s ready.”
Although Taylor claims she shielded Kennedy from effects of the majority of alleged abuse she suffered at the hands of her late husband, she also admits that her daughter witnessed many painful things after Taylor ended up in the hospital following an alleged abuse incident.
Kennedy saw too much and she visited me in the hospital when I had reconstructive surgery on my eye. She wanted to see me and I have – as you know – a titanium implant supporting my right eye now. She came to the hospital to see me, so that was something she went through. But she doesn’t know where that came from. We’ll choose a right time to explain things to her, but it will be with therapists there, and people who can guide that conversation, because I want her to love him as her father.”
For the time being, the Bravo star is working hard at maintaining a sense of stability and normalcy for her daughter.
“It was a blessing that everything occurred right around the time that school was back in session. So, she got back into a routine fairly quickly,” she adds. “Just being around her friends again has been so helpful. Just letting her feel like a child, and not having this heavy weight on her shoulders.”
Taylor also makes mention of the importance of making sure a violent relationship doesn’t make its way into her daughter’s life.
“I also want to make sure that we break the cycle of violence and that she doesn’t end up in an unhealthy relationship because she saw an unhealthy relationship in her own household.”