He’s conquered the rap game, held it down as an author and entrepreneur, and now Jay-Z can’t wait to add “doting dad” to his long list of accomplishments when he welcomes his daughter with wife, Beyoncé this winter; even if it means diaper duty!
“Of course, of course [I’ll change my baby’s diapers],” Jay, real name Shawn Carter, tells GQ in its December issue. Already imagining driving his baby girl around town in his Maybach, the 42-year-old says that the thing he’s looking forward to most is being an active father, unlike the dad who abandoned him at age 11.
“If your dad died before you were born, yeah, it hurts, but it’s not like you had a connection with something that was real,” Jay-Z explains of his situation. “Not to say it’s any better, but to have that connection and then have it ripped away was, like, the worst. My dad was such a good dad that when he left, he left a huge scar. He was my superhero.”
The rapper and his father, Adnis Reeves, finally reunited in 2003 when he was 33, but as Carter reveals, the healing process began with a lot of talking, on his part.
[I talked about] what it did to me, what it meant, asked him why. There was no real answer. There was nothing he could say, because there’s no excuse for that. There really isn’t. So there was nothing he could say to satisfy me, except to hear me out. And it was up to me to forgive and let it go.”
Though life without his father was difficult, Jay says that his dad’s absence has helped him understand what matters most when it comes to being a parent — being present.
“Providing — that’s not love,” he explains. “Being there — that’s more important. I mean, we see that. We see that with all these rich socialites. They’re crying out for attention; they’re hurting for love. I’m not being judgmental — I’m just making an observation. They’re crying out for the love that maybe they didn’t get at home, and they got everything. All the material things that they need and want. So we know that’s not the key.”