Just a few short months ago, Kim Kardashian was planning her happily ever after with NBA star Kris Humphries, trying to decide when they were going to start a family, and how many children they wanted. Now, with her second marriage already in the process of divorce, Kim’s slowly coming to terms with her reality, and what that means for her dreams of motherhood.
“I believe in love and the dream of having a perfect relationship, but my idea of it has changed,” Kardashian tells Glamour. “I think I need to not live in a fairy tale like that. I think I maybe need to just snap out of it and be a little more realistic.”
Though her younger sister, Khloe, 27, is optimistic that she “will get [love] again,” Kim says she needs to realize “that what I want isn’t possible.” And according to Kardashian, that includes becoming a mother.
I always wanted what Mom and Dad had. And at first I was like, ‘I want six kids.’ Then I went down to four, then I was down to three, and now I’m like, ‘Maybe I won’t have any,'” says the starlet. “Maybe I’ll just be a good aunt…. At this moment in my life, I feel like maybe I’m not supposed to have kids and all that.”
To Khloe, Kim’s just being “dramatic” about it, reminding her big sis, “Mom and Dad got a divorce, and she met Bruce [Jenner]. And you were a child; you don’t know what Mom and Dad had. As an outsider looking in, it probably looked like paradise.”
But Kim argues, “That’s how I feel. Maybe my fairy tale has a different ending than I dreamed it would. But that’s OK.”
For more from the Kardashian sisters, check out the January issue of Glamour, on newsstands December 6.