Grey’s Anatomy alum Katherine Heigl is the latest celebrity mom to blog about the joys of motherhood. The actress – who stars in the upcoming action comedy One for the Money, in theaters January 27 – writes in her first blog for iVillage and opens up about 3-year-old daughter Naleigh and the challenges of balancing career and motherhood.
I have always known I wanted to be a mother,” Katherine wrote. “When I was maybe 10 years old, I would ask the mothers at church if I could hold their babies during the service: Since so many of them had several children, they were happy to oblige me. I would skip Sunday school to go play with the kids in the nursery.”
She continued: “I have also always known I wanted to be an actress. From the moment I walked onto my first set when I was 11 years old, I knew I had found my passion. I loved everything about making movies: the wardrobe that made the character come alive in me; the hair and makeup that could transform me; the cast and crew that became like a family for those few short months; and the craft service where there was never a shortage of sodas and Slim Jims.”
The 33-year-old Emmy-winner said that acting and motherhood are her “two great loves.”
“I could not have known when I was 10 years old holding other women’s children and playing the greatest game of make-believe on earth that I would one day have to reconcile my two great loves,” Katherine wrote. “I didn’t realize that having it all would not look and feel as I imagined. I knew, of course, as I prepared to welcome my daughter into my life that it would be a bit of a juggling act but I had no doubt that I could do it. After all, it’s 2012 and women have been told that we can have it all if we want it. I went into it full throttle, ready to buckle down and make it all work seamlessly as I always imagined I could. The thing is I couldn’t.”
But as it turns out, balancing motherhood and her career is not an easy juggling act.
No matter how great my intentions, how lofty my goals, how passionate my commitment, I was failing,” Katherine wrote. “I was failing my work, I was failing my daughter, I was failing my husband. I was stressed out and exhausted. I was worried and afraid it was all slipping through my fingers no matter how tight my grip. I couldn’t appreciate or enjoy the moments with Naleigh because I feared they weren’t enough for her and knew they weren’t enough for me. I couldn’t enjoy the work because I was so distracted by the little being in my trailer waiting for me. I couldn’t help but wonder what I had gotten myself into and if the choice I made to be a working mother was the most selfish decision of my life.”
Continue reading Katherine’s blog at iVillage…