Ethan Hawke is content with his life now. However things weren’t always going so well with the actor. He tells The Guardian that he suffered a dark period following his divorce from Uma Thurman in 2004.
He said, “I call it the black years. It was really difficult. It was difficult in ways I couldn’t even see at the time. There was the obvious way in which it was difficult – the death of a dream, the inability to parent in the way that you want to. But for me it was – what’s that Dante quote? ‘At the midpoint of my life, I’ve come to the part of the forest where the straight way is lost.’ Nothing teaches you like getting leveled. And I got leveled in my early 30s.”
Hawke, 41, added, “Nothing went exactly the way I thought it would. Wait a second: love isn’t real and, holy s**t, I put all this energy into not making the same mistake my parents did and I just re-enacted them all! I thought I was so much smarter than everybody. And I’m not.”
Now married to Ryan Shawhughes – whom he started dating in 2005 and married in 2008 – he’s finding being a father to Maya, 13, Levon,10, Clementine, 3, and 6-month-old Indiana easier this time.
I’m really the right age now. I like being home. When Mia was born, I was 27. It was three years after Reality Bites came out. I look at pictures of myself and wonder: what was I thinking?” What was he thinking? “I think I thought when I was younger that I would, like, get things and then it would all be easy. You’d be able to walk whatever road you wanted and then sadly you would start having arthritis, but by then you’d have kids and everything would be fine. I didn’t really understand what a meandering road adulthood is.”