British musician Julian Lennon claims that he has postponed having children so he can be a better father once he decides to start a family. The 49-year-old photographer also says that he is trying not to repeat the same “mistakes” he feels his father – legendary The Beatles singer John Lennon – made when he had his children years ago.
“I didn’t want to follow certain things dad had done because dad’s mother died when he was 17 and so on,” Julian explains during an appearance on the British daytime show This Morning. “So I didn’t want to have children so early in life and I wanted to learn about life a little more … I didn’t want to make the same mistakes, basically.”
”One can only hope I’ve learned a little more and am a little wiser on that front,” he adds. “It was a different time for everybody.”
Julian – who was abandoned by his father at the age of five after his father and mother Cynthia Powell divorced- has collected Beatles memorabilia related to his father over the years, even publishing a book in 2010 titled Beatles Memorabilia: The Julian Lennon Collection. In doing so, Julian remains hopeful that he can one day share the personal tokens with his future child(ren).
”If I’m going to have a family I want to have things that belong to my family, that were part of history,” he shares. “Initially, I started collecting the more personal things that were related to me – postcards sent to me. At the time you don’t think things sent to you are going to be ‘memorabilia’ in later life.”
In other interviews, Julian has expressed feelings of neglect when his father had son Sean with Yoko Ono, claiming he felt emotionally abandoned and left out once Sean arrived.
“I remember thinking, when Dad gave up music for a couple of years to be with Sean, ‘Why couldn’t he do that with me?'” he reflects. “Those thoughts haunted me for a time.”