It’s been four years since Kelly Preston and John Travolta‘s 16-year-old son Jett died during after suffering a seizure during a family vacation in the Bahamas. The Jerry Maguire star opens up about her “enormous loss” on Lifetime’s The Conversation With Amanda de Cadenet.
“I’ve had enormous loss. Nobody should have to lose a child. It’s unfathomable,” Kelly says. “But I’m here to say that you can get through it. You can live again. You can want to live again…. Everybody grieves in their own way. I felt at times like I was drowning. It felt like a sea of wet blankets. And then I just peeled them off, layer by layer, so that I can now say, ‘I want to live. I love life. My life is beautiful and amazing.”
A devout Scientologist, she credits her church with helping her heal: “In Scientology, we have what’s called ‘auditing,’ and that helps you to address things in your life and to strip them away and work through them. It’s a path of spiritual enlightenment,” the 50-year-old actress explains. “Also, it helps rid the mind of painful experience completely. Through that, the people at my church literally held my hand and got me through… I will forever be indebted. You never forget, but I feel like the weight of the world was lifted.”
Also mom to daughter Ella Bleu, 12, and son Benjamin, 17 months, Kelly admits she’s so enamored with motherhood that she’s tempted to add to their brood again.
“Having another child after this experience — we had to think about it, especially this late in life. I always wanted to have more kids. I feel like I would even have another child, but it might be pushing it.”