For new dad AJ McLean, staying sober is “a daily thing.” But the Backstreet Boys star says his 3-week-old daughter Ava Jaymes is his greatest motivator.
“I can’t stress how much my daughter is an inspiration to stay sober,” McLean tells In Touch. “When I come home and she opens those big blue eyes at me, it’s the most amazing feeling I could ever feel. I’m not looking for sympathy. It’s a constant struggle, and it’s not as easy as you think.”
And although his daughter brings him great inspiration, the former boy bander admits that he recently fell off the wagon.
“A few weeks ago I had a really bad day, I was in a funk,” the 34-year-old popstar says. “I went out in Hollywood and had a couple of beers and maybe one or two shots.”
The singer admits that this lapse in his willpower has happened several times in the past year.
“This happened two weeks ago, roughly,” he shares. “Before that, I was sober for almost a month. Before then, four months. It’s been sporadic.”
McLean has battled with alcohol and drug addiction for more than a decade and has entered rehab three times (in 2001, 2002 and 2011).
“I will forever be an alcoholic and an addict in recovery as long as I live,” he tells the mag. “It’s an ongoing struggle, a daily thing.”
And now that AJ is a husband, father, making a solo record and working on a jewelry line, he admits life is “overwhelming” right now.
“[I’m] trying to be a good husband and a good father and deal with life on life’s terms. There is a lot going on. It’s been overwhelming,” he says.
In the meantime, AJ’s wife Rochelle has been busy posting sweet snapshots of their gorgeous girl via Instagram. Check out the latest photo that the proud new mom cations, “Perfection.”View Slideshow »»