Mom-of-two Gwyneth Paltrow covers the April issue of SELF and opens up about her new family cookbook, It’s All Good, with low-carb and gluten-free recipes. She says that clean eating has impacted her emotions and nearly 10-year marriage to Coldplay frontman Chris Martin.
On why she changed her diet: “A couple of years ago, I got really run down. I had to sing at awards shows, which was fun but stressful. I’d have a Guinness and a beta-blocker every time. I also was constantly getting on airplanes, trying to knock myself out with sleeping pills and wine, waking up, trying to sweat it out with exercise and a steam, and then working really hard all day. Eventually, I had a panic attack. My body was like, ‘What is happening?'”
On her new diet: “My doctor, Alejandro Junger, recommended that I cut out basically everything: dairy, sugar, gluten, anything processed. I was like, ‘What the f— am I going to eat now?’ That’s why I made the book: to stop eating brown rice out of the fridge because I didn’t know what else to eat—it was demoralizing.”
On how her new diet changed her emotions and relationships: “You feel lighter and your emotions get smoother. I also was run-down because I had a lot of unexpressed anger. I made everyone else’s feelings more important than my own. I’d suck it up and then be alone in my car yelling at traffic or fighting with hangers in my closet when they got stuck together. You’re not learning anything unless you’re having the difficult conversations. Dealing with things directly changed my relationships. Sometimes when you get clear about who you are, others get less comfortable because they liked who you were. It’s changed my marriage too, but he’s up for the challenge.”
On if she calls on her girlfriends for advice: “Always. ‘I have a guy coming for dinner. What should I make?’ or ‘My mother really upset me. How should I approach it?’ They know I’ve been through a lot of pain and suffering—some public, some private—and I keep going. Or maybe it’s just that I was the first one who could afford therapy.”
On how she describes her 30s: “They were happy. I came into my womanhood, had my kids. My 20s were a lot of work, and I had no big-picture sense of who I was, where I was going or the point of it all.”
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