Academy Award-winning actress Nicole Kidman graces the December issue of Vanity Fair and opens up about experiencing extreme fame during her marriage to Tom Cruise, and her “very, very peaceful” life with husband Keith Urban and their daughters Sunday, 5, and Faith, 2.
On being 23 when she married Tom Cruise: “I was so young. And you know, with no disrespect to what I had with Tom, I’ve met my great love now. And I really did not know if that was going to happen. I wanted it, but I didn’t want it for a while, because I didn’t want to jump from one relationship to another. I had a lot of time alone, which was really, really good, because I was a child, really, when I got married. And I needed to grow up.”
On experiencing extreme fame with Tom Cruise: “There is something about that sort of existence that, if you really focus on each other and you’re in that bubble, it’s very intoxicating, because it’s just the two of you. And there is only one other person that’s going through it. So it brings you very close, and it’s deeply romantic. I’m sure Brad and Angelina have that—because there’s nobody else that understands it except that person who’s sleeping right next to you.”
On moving out of Hollywood: “The whole business side of it—it’s too present. It doesn’t suit me. There’s an enormous amount you have to give up if you want to have a family. You can have a certain career, but you can’t be living in Hollywood, [where] absolutely everything, everything revolves around it. That wasn’t my choice. I’d rather revolve around somebody else’s career and then still find my own. [I love living in Nashville] “because I can kind of have a very odd, idiosyncratic kind of path. I have stepped away from the fame part of it. I didn’t find what I was looking for in fame. So I went, O.K., this is not for me. And it was such a blessing that I found somebody who said, ‘Well, are you willing to move to Tennessee?’ And I was ‘Oh, am I willing to move!’”
On life with Keith & their daughters: “[Life is] very, very peaceful. [But I struggle between] “giving my life to my lover and my children” [and] “giving my life to my artistic desires…because I’m passionate, so I want to be able to give completely to both, and that doesn’t work always. It’s a push-pull. It’s uncharted. My husband and I are in uncharted territory because we’re trying to find artistic expression but also we’re incredibly connected as a family—we’re very, very tight, very, very close, and I have a very, very primal protection of my family.”
For more from Nicole, go to Vanity Fair….